Monday, April 13, 2009

Week 6.....half way there

Well I just finished week 6. I am down 9.5 pounds & 7.5 inches.

Going through a LOT of emotional issues on the home front but doing my very best to stay positive & push forward.

Everytime I feel positivity in my life someone close to me says or does something that strips my positivity & my self esteem back to ZERO!

I am very proud with being half way through this challenge & the losses I have had so far. I will push harder for the next 6 weeks & see the person within me that God sees.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Week 4 update

Well I made it to week 4. I have to say I Feel AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


4 week stats are : -6.5# & -5" & -2.31 BF% & -2.13 BMI

It is so much easier to follow the BFL lifestyle this time......don't know why but it truely FEELS like the way of life now!

It all kinda made sense after I read my Daily Devotion from Joel Osteens book " Your Best Life Begins Each Morning" this morning it said:

Firm in Your Faith

If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand firm at all Isaiah 7:9

UNDERSTANDING THIS: GOD WILL help you in life, but you cast the deciding vote. If you choose to stay focused on negative elements in your life, if you focus on what you can't do & what you don't have, then by your own choice you are agreeing to be defeated. You are conspiring with the enemy by opening the door & allowing destructive thoughts, words, actions & attitudes to dominate your life.

However,if you'll get into agreement with God, if you'll focus on your possibilities, your faith can cause God to show up & work supernaturally in your life. But its up to you. It depends on your outlook. Consider this: you are today what you believed about yourself yesterday. And you will become tomorrow what you believe about yourself right now.

Yesterday I was walking on a cloud all day. I just felt smaller, can't really explain what is happening to my body & my mind right now. All I can say is SOMETHING is happening to BOTH!!!

For the first time in my life I am feeling POSITIVE changes in all areas of my life!

Monday, March 23, 2009

week 3

Well I just finished week 3. Will be doing pics this week. I have LB DOMS all the time. (that has never happened)

I have been finding new things out about myself during this challenge

1) I wasn't working out to my full potential before (I know this because I have NEVER had DOMS like I do now)

2) I really do love oats & egg whites

3) freedays are not as much fun as I remembered them being

4) I have made a lifestyle change

5) I NEVER want to eat like I used to

6) I start my day off in a positive way everyday by reading Joel Osteens daily devotion from "Your best life begins each morning"

7) I CAN get up at 4:30 AM to do a workout before going to work

So many people have touched my life during this 2 year BFL journey. I could NEVER thank them enough....BUT....IF you happen to stumble onto my blog/diary please know I THANK YOU for all you have done for me!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Two weeks into my challenge now. I totally love the BFL style. Last week was bad for me. I don't know if it was from the time change or the full moon but I was MISERABLE! I missed 1 workout & eating was not spot on, not awful but not great either.

So glad that this is a new week with a new attitude. I feel like I am back in the game this week. Just finished a very intense UBWO & getting ready to eat.

I read my Joel Osteen Morning devotional yesterday & it just felt like he was speaking to me face to face. It was weird cuz he was saying the things I was feeling like being unworhty & all. Well after I finished reading it I realized I was on March 20th NOT March 15th! MISTAKE???? I doubt it, there are NO mistakes!

Going to try to blog my challenge a week at a time just so I can see where my attitude goes.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

BFL New Challenge don't realize how much you miss something till it is gone! I have been away from the BFL lifestyle since last September.

I started a challenge on March 1st. I feel like I have learned so much during the past 2 years.

I look back to past challenges & when I look at the weights I was lifting well that would explain why I didn't get the results I wanted.

I now am lifting to the MAX! Cheating is not even thought about at all!!!! THAT is a first!

I want this so badly. I KNOW I can get through this & will see some major transforming!

I looked back at all my BFL challenges & every week there was a change. May not have been much BUT there was a change! I went the past 9 weeks without any change at all just lots of depression from working out for almost 2 hours a day! I guess that is OK for people who have 2 hours to kill a day BUT I do not. I don't even have time to watch TV or read a book. My days are FULL! I honestly STEAL 3 hours a week to watch my 3 favorite shows. But to even think of seeing them I have to run in the house after work & hit my workout & DH must make the dinner or I miss that tiny bit of relaxing time!

Michelle & I started this challenge together as we both were feeling kinda down on ourselves & wanted to stop this insanity. It really helps to know that your friends are not there only to push you BUT to grab your hand & pull you along if you are feeling weak!

HUGE thank you to all that I call my friend!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Body For Life

I am 10 days from starting my 2nd Official BFL challenge. I feel I have learned so many things from so many people that I NOW have the knowledge to do a challenge & feel good.

I started BFL March 25th 2007. My eating was HORRIBLE, exercise consisted of getting out of bed. I feel I am becoming obsessed with fitness which is a good feeling.

I actually crave healthy food now.....who would have ever thought that would happen!

I am going to start & finish this challenge like so many others have......SUCCESSFULLY!

I will be rereading the book over the next 10 days & putting my workouts & eating together

March 1st will be the first day of the rest of my life

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


I can not believe how much my life has changed in the past year. NEVER did I think I would not crave pasta or mashed potatoes & gravy or fried potatoes with onion......WELLLLLL...... I have broken that chain! My entire life I have eaten pasta or some type of potato with EVERY dinner! Spaghetti was ALWAYS my ultimate fav food! NOW.....yuck! It sits like lead in my stomach. Even the whole wheat pasta does not do well in my belly.

I have not missed a single workout since December 11th! AGAIN....I used to come up with an excuse why I couldn't get a workout in. NOW I might complain about it BUT I do it!

I have had a FEW slip ups with food but that is even getting WAAAAAYYYYY better.

I want to find that inner person so badly! I look up to so many people. When I think I can't do it anymore I think of those people & I find the strength to push forward! THANKS!!!!

I sometimes wonder how quick my transformation would be if I were still in my 30's rather than knocking on the door of 50? OR........if I had my thyroid & it was working proper?????

I will never have the answer to those ?????

2009 WILL be my transformation year!!!!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Feb. 4th

WOW I feel like I am sooooo alive today! Funny how pushing yourself actually makes you feel so much better!

I have been working on preparing food for several days & that has soooo helped with my progress lately!

I LOVE this feeling!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Coming to terms with myself

I was sitting here trying to remember what I used to do in the evening.......then it hit me....NOTHING! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! Unless you want to talk about the CRAP food I poisoned my body with every single night while I sat around doing nothing.

I used to think heavy people that were happy were so lucky because they wouldn't get all depressed about people looking at them funny.....NOW...... I actually feel sorry for them because their quality of life is not very good. They can't keep up with their children or grandchildren.

I am & will be forever thankful to Bill Phillips for the knowledge he shared with me & so many others. Tony for helping me create the person I have been hiding for so many years & all the wonderful people that have inspired me along the way....YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

Although I know I will have days that I cave in to temptation, I know how to make amends for doing so. I am human. I WILL fall down BUT that does not make me a bad simply makes me HUMAN!

If I really want something I will think about it before I go get it. If after thinking about it I still want it then I will have it but I will not eat something out of impulse!

Why did I wait so long to start living?

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Wednesday Jan28

I feel untouchable today! Boy the mind can really be a rollercoaster! 1 day you are fighting to stay on track & the next it all seems second nature!

I will continue to move forward & when I hit a bump or MAJOR pothole in the road I WILL pick myself up & move forward!


Monday, January 26, 2009

What will it Take??????

How the hell do you kick it hard core for 2 straight weeks get wonderful results & just fall down?!?!?!? I am sooooo sick of this! I am sick of kicking butt on my workouts & follow the eating 100% then slip! I tell myself all the time this has to stop! I have such a food addiction! I totally understand it is up to me to put the food into my mouth. I have prayed for strength. This is a REAL problem for me. It is NOT me just being weak. I want this more than anything in life. However, its like I go into this robotic mode & destroy everything in my path.

OMG I gotta go to sleep, I am rambling & starting to sound like the people that annoy me!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Wednesday Jan. 21st

Monday I pushed my workout to a whole new level. I was still so weak by last night that I had to go down in my weights a little! I HATE step-up lunges!!!!!!!

I'm having a hard time today because someone at work said I'm actually looking BIGGER! Thank goodness the Divas cleared some things up about that! However, I still hear her voice telling me "You look bigger, more bulky than you used to".....AAAARRRGGGG!!!!! I will continue doing what I've been doing because I know its right!

Tracy.....if you happen to read this......I can never thank you enough for helping me last summer! You put my head in the right direction & although I didn't get the results I wanted it had NOTHING to do with you it had to do with me not believing in myself & giving in to bad foods! You planted the seed in my head & I just started watering it so now it is blooming! THANK YOU....THANK YOU.....THANK YOU!!!

One thing I have noticed though is that following that hard workout on Monday, I have NO desire to eat bad food.....YEA!!!!! I didn't think that would ever happen! Prayers are being answered!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Moday 1/19

I swear everyday I think this is the hardest wo so far. Today, I KNOW its the hardest wo so far! It took me 1 hour 40 minutes to get it done. I burned 760 calories in that time! We still have some of Isaiahs birthday cake here & after that wo I wouldn't even think of a bite of it! I am NOT going to work this hard just so my taste buds can have 30 seconds of satisfaction!

I am on my way.....this is my 2nd week of eating clean & working HARD!

This WILL be my AMAZING year!

Friday, January 16, 2009

Friday 1/16

I have pushed really hard all week. I have been SUPER clean with my foods & pushed my workouts beyond my own belief

I will weigh & measure tomorrow. I sooooo want to see a change!

I have been so hungry the past 2 days. I mean to the point 2 hours after I eat my stomach is SCREAMING at me! Never had that happen before after only 2 hours?!?

I have tons of support from DH but NO support from anyone else. I KNOW there is a whole different person hiding within me & I WILL not stop til I find her!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

100 % and feeling GREAT

I have been busting butt on my workouts the past few weeks but not so good with the eating (not horrible, just not good) I am proud to say I am on day 3 of being 100% in all areas!!!!

I started tracking my food on fitday again, I also track my calories burned. I am writing down EVERYTHING now & it seems to be working

I realized the other day I eat oatmeal with egg whites & flax seed oil EVERY morning & think nothing of it. I actually look forward to it BUT when it comes to eating my chicken or turkey I feel deprived if I don't cook it a bunch of different ways! NOW......I know I can eat the chicken or turkey to nourish my body NOT make my taste buds happy!

I have been right around 1400 calories a day. I am not weighing myself for 1 week so Saturday I'll be able to love my scale OR throw it through the window. I think I'm gonna LOVE it I feel REALLY GOOD!!!!

Monday, January 12, 2009

Day 1

How many times must you "start over"???? ANSWER: as many as it takes!

Just finished M2, I have 60 ozs. of water in me, 1 hour of exercise done, 500 calories gone

I WILL find that inner person no matter how many times I must start over! She is hiding BUT I will find her!

I feel changes happening inside but getting REAL tired of waiting for the physical changes.